October 2004

That’s right Ladies and Gentleman, the cattle are lowing. That means its time to come home. Rachael and I should be in sometime tonight. Try on my tux, meet my parents. Glory. Glory. Glory.

…My sweetheart loved the brakeman and that ain’t no joke, it’s a shame the way she keeps a good man broke. I got the freight train blues (hee, hee, hoo)…”

- Freight Train Blues, Bob Dylan

Nice weather, nice people and nice day to make an ass out of yourself… for your Japanese mid-term. I had to do a skit in front of the class speaking all in Japanese with some “interesting” Anime-lovin’, D&D playin’ middle-class W.A.S.P’s! (White Anglo-Saxon, Protestant)…and I messed up the skit. I was fed bad “que’s” and I couldn’t remember two of my lines. Yes, Ladies and Gentleman a complete ass of myself! Oh well, I went to the mall quickly afterwards, got some gas, checked the oil and made a new batch of snuff. This is going to be one Glorious weekend. Rachael and Quinten should be here (in Albany) around 3:00pm or so. We’ll grab a bite to eat then I am driving us to the frozen tundra (not Green Bay, Wisconsin) Peeslyville, NY. Pray for a safe trip and that my tux fits for the wedding and for Rachael…for some reason she fears meeting my family. I guess everyone does when they meet someone else’s family for the first time. So for the Glory see you on Plattsburgh time tomorrow. Wort, wort, wort.

…Nobodies taught you to live on the street now your gonna have to get used to it…”

- Bob Dylan, Like a Rolling Stone. (This is for Dan; he “loves this song”.)



Well my fellow partakers in the Blogging traditions… I first, must apologize from my absence…It’s been interesting. I have good news though, I passed my Juvenile Justice test with a B+, and it’s nice to pass a test well. It’s just been crazy-Glorious, I am preparing myself for my good pal, Dan’s wedding on Saturday (I am the best man), Rachael and Quinten are coming down, How much more Glory can you get in a weekend honestly? I wanted to not repeal my last post on Sunday about being anxious maybe just add something. Not that I am disagreeing with myself now, I just had a spiritual epiphany last night about anxiousness (not anxiousness to preach the gospel) but in general, anxiety, Anxiety about life, love (which causes a great deal especially, when you are not near the one’s you love) and pretty much anything else you can think of. I was reading my Bible on Monday night and bob’s your uncle; trot the dog walk, booyah. I came to this verse in Philippians that just comforted me beyond all else. I am just going to post it. I think it speaks for itself. “Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy–meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.” Philippians 4:4-9. The lights came on when I read this, God is so good and I am a Bluetard. To my fellow partakers, my webmaster and to my pals I hope this helps you as much as it did me. I know I haven’t really told you anything new about my comings and going’s of the past week but, I felt that this was more important. Glory.

…I’ve escaped death so many times, I know I’m only livingBy the saving grace that’s over me.”

-Saving Grace, Bob Dylan.

Do you ever feel anxious for something? Something that you don’t know exactly what you’re anxious about…something that you know you should be worried about only if you knew what it was, well welcome to my world. I wasn’t feeling this way till about 10:30 am (when I awoke) I have this feeling that I should be doing something, or getting something accomplished only if I knew what the f*** it was (I am trying to stop swearing, so much.). I took a bath this morning and opted not to go to church. My Father and Mother had the flu and I hadn’t seen them that much this weekend so, there you go. I just have this gut instinct telling me I should run, jump and step-hop to what ever I am suppose to be doing at the moment. So I go on about my day cleaning my room, hiding gifts (Rachael is coming down this weekend) and playing my bass but, still nothing. No sense of accomplishment. I get some gas drive down to go see Jay’s mom in the hospital before, I leave say goodbye to his sister (who drove up from Pennsylvania) and still Zippo, nada, nothing. I drove down to Albany and had this feeling I should stop at a rest area not because I had to use the facilities but, just a feeling I should stop. I didn’t not seven miles down the road there is a huge traffic jam spreading miles and miles. I just sat in my car thinking about “why didn’t I stop?” “Why should I have stopped?” “Did God want me to avoid traffic? Or was this just my thoughts to justify myself sitting idly in a car waiting to go back to Albany.” “Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.” Hebrews 13:2 (NIV) Passive thoughts cross my mind of the many times I have been in situations on road trips undoubtedly entertaining angels and getting there help when my car is overheating (another story for another time.) I saw with grim horror as I drove by these people who went over the railing on the highway and there car was stuck on the middle of a steep hill with passengers still inside and thought to myself “why did this happen?” A question that has led many people to stray from or avoid Christianity and I have had that question given to me on so many occasions I have lost count. Why… Because God works in mysterious ways, why do people have to suffer? And the same answer is given. Why was I at the age of nine a drug addict? Why did I have to take care of my little sister? These thoughts crossed my path when I asked myself but, as I look back I can say now I know why. To help someone who was once lost like me. To let someone know that not all people who are Christians are perfect people and Jesus still performs miracles today.

“They overcame him

by the blood of the Lamb

and by the word of their testimony;

they did not love their lives so much

as to shrink from death.” Revelations 12:11 (NIV)

We overcome. Overcome every thing in our lives on the word of God and our testimony. So many times we get so wrapped up in the stress of our lives and don’t look over to the person next to us, who we know doesn’t know the Lord and let them pass by. Did you ever think we (or put in place “Brian” to make you feel less guilty) that those lost don’t have someone to turn to as we do? The Lord puts me in my place many a time. Making me think about judgment day for when we have to give an account of our lives and as we are waiting in line you’ll see a person you went to school with, someone you work with or even a person that you have been friends with since grade school and they look at you right before its there turn for to give an account and they look back at you with fear and trembling saying “Why didn’t you tell me?” I have no words that I could give; no apology would ever be accepted knowing that in a moment that eternal damnation is where that person(s) would end up. Maybe that’s why I am anxious, anxious to let people know that they don’t have to end up in hell or even that they don’t have to take that next hit, snort that last line or shoot that next fix. It’s just something to consider not, to mention one of the few jobs that we as Christian are asked I am sorry, commanded to do. “He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation.” -Mark 16:15 (NIV.) We got some work to do. Feeling anxious????

#1) I am going Home to Plattsburgh see, you in a few hours!!!!



#2) This is my 48th post!



and #3) Well there isn’t a #3 but, this blogg will be updated before 4:00pm on Monday. Fare thee well.

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…I followed you beneath the stars, hounded by your memoryAnd all your ragin’ glory…” Idiot Wind –Bob Dylan

My Glorious what a beautiful, rainy, wonderful day it is one of those days that makes you proud to be an American (I don’t know why it just does) I must apologize for my lack of participation in the brotherhood of blogging, its just been kinda hectic here. Today on the other hand was not. I woke up 11:00am (ooh yeah, that’s right) I haven’t been able to sleep that late ever here at Albany but, I dropped my Global Politics class yesterday so, now I can (that wasn’t the reason but, it’s a nice perk) So I got up had lunch and drove down to campus a little early. I parked over in Dutch and headed out to the “Mass Transit” office (11,000 students, I guess mass isn’t an overstatement) to pick up a parking pass for Rachael for next weekend. I am looking forward to next weekend so much, I get to see Rachael & Quinten and they’ll be coming down with me to Plattsburgh to see my Glorious pal Danny Rock and Danielle get married (they grow up so damn fast, you know) right back to my day. After I picked up the pass, I went to the library checked my email and headed to Japanese class. There was no test today!!! I know you say “so what?” we generally have two a week in Japanese class so, lick the underside of my shoe. Sensee came into the room and told us “today is culture day” I thought to myself “so are we going to discuss Super Mario, DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) and Cartoon porn?” No. Instead we played a game kind of like “telephone” you know that classic game you played when you were a kid in first grade, whispering something into someone’s ear and it goes a long a line till the one at the end says the message…well…this was pretty close it was called “Hiragana telephone writing game” (Hey, if you have ever interpreted Japanese before then you would know, they have some stupid literal translations) it went like this Sensee would give a few Hiragana characters to the first person (we were all staring at the opposite wall) and we would have to write the character with our finger on the back of the person in front of you till you get to the end of the line. I was at the end of the line. We got a grand total of Zero points. It was a fun game though then, I visited one of my favorite Pakistani. I think his name is Svek (don’t ask me to pronounce it) I go inside and he says “go out my friend” (It’s a pre-pay gas station) He knows me well enough to know that I do not steal gas so on my word I go out, pump gas, check oil and then go in to pay. A dialog uses transposes itself generally its, “how are you doing my friend” “glorious, just glorious and you” “good, good yes, yes” “going home today” “no not today Sv…(I mumble to let him think I can pronounce my name) tomorrow” this is the same dialog, every time, like a reoccurring dream. I like it though it’s just one of those things knowing that after the conversation in exactly 24hrs. To that moment, I will be going home. I drove back to my dorm, found a nice parking space and walked to my dorm. To find it empty I sat down and two minutes later Ray appeared then, disappeared. He’s a great roommate. Nice, quiet and doesn’t bring his psycho, girlfriend over to have angry sex on his bed, while I am trying to sleep four feet away. I went downstairs, had dinner and did some light reading and Japanese homework. It’s just been such a long week the stress, the worry and now the peace. Peace. God is good.

…The paintbox tunes and wild balloonsTheir watchful eyes, you start to swoon…”

Carousel -Siouxsie and the Banshees.

My Gratuitious ammounts of Glory! (My spell checker is not working right now so if you see something not right, screw you. I tried.) This has been one heck of a weekend (I know, I am heading to hump day already) I first want to apologize to my readers for not updating sooner. It’s been a rough few days on my body and my mind but, God is still alive and sitting on the throne so without futher ado, my weekend…

Thursday: Man this is hard to remember…Alright. I headed out to classes a bit late but, still went to all of them and when I got to my Japanese class suprisingly, it went quickly and I headed out to that frozen tundra of the north, Plattsburgh, NY (technically I headed to Peeslyville first) I made it home about 5:30pm and put my laundry in the washer and called Dan (I got the machine) I then proceeded to do something I had been looking forward to all week. I laid down on the couch and took a nap. Oooh Lordy, I love that couch, we’ve had some good times together napping, sleeping, reclining…glory. Afterwards, my mother arrived (my father was already there, he was working on my brothers timing belt on his car.) but, I think I made dinner for myself then, gave a call over to Sarah’s place to get a hold of my favorite webmaster (if he would fix my template) Jay to say hello (again, I got another machine) So, I called Dan once more (about I dunno it was kinda late) but I couldn’t get a hold of him and I headed out to Plattsburgh and caught up with Jay and Sarah. It was a Glorious time, we watched a movie and Jay and I headed out, played Halo way into the night and went to bed around 5:00am (oh and we watched “Eternal Sunshine of a spotless mind” ) I highly recommend this film to anyone, I had at least three cineogasms during this flick, I know amazing. My Glorious.



Friday: I got up first at 8:30am, my legs had cramps so badly I almost cried but, I prayed and went back to bed. Jay went off to work and I woke up around 11:45am remembering I had to return the movies by 12:00pm. So I flew down to Blockbuster and returned to films a few minutes till, I felt like James Bond in “Octopussy” waiting till the last moment. I proceeded after this to Wal*Mart to go get a free cookie from Jay’s mom (and my friend) but, she was on break and nowhere to be found. So I climbed into the Rorymobile and headed to the Schuyler Falls post office to pick up a Christmas present for Rachael (My girlfriend, for any new come-ers) but, as I stepped into the door this tall women with a butch hair cut and a sweet voice told me my mail man took to packages to my house (I need to sign for them, they have been waiting at the post office for days now) so I got into my car and headed out to my house and as I pulled up the road to my house, I met my mail man at my mailbox. I signed and picked up the gifts and as I got into the house, I found out that my Dad had already left for work. Boo. So, I took a two-hour long bath watched, Omega Man, had lunch and Danielle called and told me that her mother was sick in the hospital, that was the reason they could not get a hold of me. My Father came home later on and we had a grand ole’ time till’ I headed out to Sarah’s apartment to celebrate Canadian Thanksgiving. Jason’s mom made the food and Sarah made the pie. Oh wow, I haven’t that much in a while, it was so good. Later on in the evening we watched “Back to the future” pt. 2 & 3. I even got online to come back from retirement to play Counter Strike for all those who hate video games (I do, I can say it I am not ashamed) it’s a first-person shooter game, incredably fun (extremely difficult) played for a bit and then Jay and I headed back to his place for some cigars and a bit of the ole’ ultra-violence (aka Halo) we stayed up until 3:30 am.

Saturday: As we promised Jay’s father we headed out to the Homestead Restraunt (we were 25 minutes late, but keep in mind we got there at 7:00am) I was treated to a Glorious ½ breakfast (sooo filling) and we headed down to the radio station (Around 8:00am) I was so tired but, I pressed on, saw the new computer for the station (beautiful) and crashed on the couch at the station for two hours. I was awoken by Jason telling me we are on the air in five minutes. So Jay and I started the show and I ended up running the MCR for almost the entire show. Jay and Corey (General Manager of WQKE) were fixing the computer for the radio station. I played all the punk, ska, folk and contemporary Christian music I wanted (if anyone was listening, it was glorious) I ended it with the “Spicy McHaggis jig” Jay and Corey were working on the computer so, I headed out to go to the Optometrist to get papers saying that I am not blind, so I can get an updated drivers license. I got to the door and before I finished giving out my name this receptionist handed me my form: I said “Damn, your good.” She replied simply “I know.” So away I whisked back to the Radio station watched Jay preform a miracle on a dying computer by in complete frustration smacking the keyboard with his fists…and it booted up!!!! The Lord and Jason work in mysterious ways. Jay and I headed back to his place and waited for Sarah to come down and I called Dan. Jay and Sarah headed to my place and Dan and Danielle were on there way (I decided it was time for a paaarrrttyyyy at the casa de la Mahuta) We played video games, Canasta and had a delicious pasta dinner made by my mother and watched a bit of the Yankees game. Dan and Danielle headed out shortly afterward and Jay and Sarah followed suite. I said my farewells, called Rachael and went to bed.

Sunday: I went to church, no one else besided me but, the sermon was amazing. Really applicable to my life (nothing like conviction to stir the soul) and later headed home. My sister and my mom were home, I ate lunch and waited for my father to return from work but, he was working overtime so, I drove to Albany.

Monday & Tuesday… It’s been tedious, stressfull and trying on my patience. “The LORD sits enthroned over the flood; the LORD is enthroned as King forever. The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace.” Psalms 29:10-11. I am relying on this.

*For all you people who read my Blogg, I know that my posts are usually more in-depth and funny (whatever) I am just catching and tomorrow this will all back to normal.

Thank you for your patience.

By the Grace of God and the hope that somehow I will be able to press on…this has been a less than stellar two days…

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To all fellow partakers in the tribulation (having the dire obligation to read my blogg in one way or another) its been one of those days…My spell-checker is broken, my mind is gone and I have a test tommorow. I will update, cross my heart and hope to choke on a pretzel. Be good and pray. -Brian. (yes, I know I just signed my name on my own blogg)

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