You’d think that with my free time that I would… complete my homework. Thought wrong sucka’! I always promise myself every weekend I’ll get all my homework done and then enjoy myself. It’s a nice thought. I usually end up waiting till the last moment and Then blitzkrieg, Bob’s your uncle, trot the dogwalk, park the car and fly through the homework kinda stuff. It’s not fun but, I do usually write better papers on the fly. I don’t know, I guess you can say that if I have to think before I speak: It…just…sounds…boring….really….boring.

Final summation: None.

Jesus Christ before his death and resurrection said this:
“If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. 19If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. 20Remember the word that I said to you, “A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted Me, they will also persecute you. If they kept My word, they will keep yours also.” – John 15:18-20

Steven (A disciple of Christ and preacher of the word) was martyred for his beliefs
“At this they covered their ears and, yelling at the top of their voices, they all rushed at him, dragged him out of the city and began to stone him. Meanwhile, the witnesses laid their clothes at the feet of a young man named Saul.” –Acts 7:57-58

Paul and Silas (Disciples of Christ) were thrown in jail for preaching the word.
“After they had been severely flogged, they were thrown into prison, and the jailer was commanded to guard them carefully. Upon receiving such orders, he put them in the inner cell and fastened their feet in the stocks.” –Acts 16:23-25

Paul, I would say summarizes my thoughts on the Christian life here:
“We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed–always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus’ sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So then death is working in us, but life in you.” – 2 Corinthians 4:8-12

As we can see that the Christian life is difficult and filled with trial, but “For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” So we may boldly say: “The LORD is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?” –Hebrews 13:5. So, what am I trying to prove? What am I trying to say? I am trying to say even with trials and difficulties in our lives we tend to look up to God and say “Where the hell are you?” “Why is this happening to me?” “If you were really God…” ect. God never said life was going to be easy but, He did say He would be with us, protect us and comfort us in times of trouble. Your times of trouble may not be facing a beating for your faith but, it maybe as simple as a failed test, a parking ticket or family troubles or illnesses. God is there, in the good and the bad, test and trial. I know that some of my readers are cringing at the length of this post but, I needed to say it. So I guess all I have to really say is, put your trust in God. Life may not be easy but, God is good.

• This last week has been very difficult, the tremors, spasms. The basic muscles in my arms, legs and torso have proven difficult to control more and more recently. My legs have been giving out on me more and more and I have been falling a lot. I have been having a lot of dizziness, headaches and muscle aches to say the least. My neuologist has not a clue as to what is going on, all my tests results have been pretty normal.

On friday, my neurologist gave me a perscription to try and stop the tremors but, the only thing it made me do is: make me feel as a drunkard for about 4 hours and then sleep. So no help whatsoever. I was given another blood test at St. Peter’s and I will find out the results soon. I can’t complain though…

So far…My grades aren’t that bad, I am still alive, my fiance’ loves me, my kid is awsome, God is still on the throne, I have a glorious support net made up of family and friends and all my test results so far, say I have nothing life-threatening…so one can say, heck I am saying it, I live a blessed life. I have been blessed above and beyond the numerical value of folds of blessings, joy unspeakable and full of Glory, cattle on a thousand hills kind of a thing!!!

I just think of Job at times like this, for those who don’t know the story. God has given Satan total control everything of Job’s, his health (he’s very sick), his children (all killed in freak accidents), and property (burned and gone), everything…but, in all this he is faithful to God.

I mean, after all his kids were killed:

“Then Job arose, tore his robe, and shaved his head; and he fell to the ground and worshiped. 21And he said: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked shall I return there. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away;Blessed be the name of the LORD.” - Job 1:20-21

Job’s wife even comes to him with this:
“Then his wife said to him, “Do you still hold fast to your integrity? Curse God and die!”
But he said to her, “You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?” In all this Job did not sin with his lips. ” - Job 2:9 &10

I figure if Job can handle all of this what’s some shaking, memory loss and all of the other candy I mentioned earlier?!

Good Lord Glory.