Bewildering.

February 13, 2008 in by HeroinGlory | No comments

Frustration is inevitable from time to time. I am vexed over political & unseeable restraints that hold me to my current position in life.

VexedIn short: This sucks.

Right now, my wife and I are in perpetual limbo. We are both having to wait and see what transpires. Everything is out of our hands, and we are now in God’s perfect (not that we weren’t already but, sometimes we are disillusioned) will.  Isn’t life like that sometimes? Getting the rug pulled out from underneath you so you can really see where you stand in life.
The real beacon that lights up your inner-self and flashes: “Who’s really in control? Is it you or is it Me [God]?”
It’s funny, I say to people “yeah, I trust in God. Yes my faith is totally in Him.”
Do I really?
I say this, and then I think in my mind: ‘yes, I am going to do to, and I am going to do that.’  Not God is going to do this, and God is going to do that.  When I catch myself in this mindset I try to correct myself internally, and remember the passage in James.
 
“Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that.” But now you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil.   your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away.”  -James 4:13-16 [NKJV]
 
In sum,
I wish I would just shut up, and enjoy the ride because I know God is the One driving.
 
 
Just think about that when you think your in control.