College. Will I Graduate this semester?
We’ll find out soon…Check out this blog very soon for complete converage and an intersting piece on public transportation.
Here we are again my fellow brethren of the blogging tradition (as early in its states, as it may be) it is time to begin anew. Inasmuch as I would like to begin with something extemporaneous but, it’s not going to be that kind of a day. I feel the need to delve into something that has come of interest to me. I know that it may all sound like think-speak at this time but, I think it will all become clear momentarily. I have been pondering the mystery of love, life and faith for a while now but, I have missed out on something important: grace. Grace is for lack of a better word, mercy. Mercy is to be kind and forgiving; I know in my life I have needed many a time grace. Grace is to me a more physical part of faith. “Faith is the substance of things hoped for, evidence of things not seen” (Hebrews 11:1). Grace is seeing that you have done wrong and a person forgives you. Even though you don’t deserve it, a person had the grace to absolve you of the wrong you had done to them. Doesn’t it feel wonderful when someone forgives you for the stupid things you do? You don’t have to do something to receive grace; someone just gives it to you as a free gift. If you had to do something to obtain grace would it then even be grace at all? No it wouldn’t it would be forgiveness. As Romans 11:5-6 states: “Even so then, at this present time there is a remnant according to the election of grace. And if by grace, then it is no longer of works; otherwise grace is no longer grace. But if it is of works, it is no longer grace; otherwise work is no longer work.” If God said “I’ll pardon you only if…” it wouldn’t work, it just wouldn’t be grace. Lamentations 3:22-24 puts it well: “It is of the LORD’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.” I know at least for me if God didn’t grant grace I wouldn’t be here. I have screwed up many a time and many a time grace was given. God gives it as a free gift, just like salvation. It takes faith to see it, hope to believe it, grace to receive it and love to see it though. I am just glad someone had the stones to tell me about it. Remember to be gracious.
…and Sometimes, the answer has been in front of you all along, and it takes the perseverance of a saint, the prayer of a warrior and the faith of a child to see the truth clearly: Love conquerors all.
“If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.” 1Corinthians 13
Sometimes decisions in your life are difficult to make.
…Glory Stones.
“For we walk by faith, not by sight.”
-II Corinthians 5:7
I will update more clearly when I have more time but, here we go…
Since my last post:
1. Jen came home from Africa. Thank God I missed her so much.
2. I got engaged: Jen Joslyn and I will be married June 9th, 2007.
3. College started. It’s been busy.
4. I got an awsome internship with: New York State Division of Human Rights.
5. I got sick as a dog.
6. I missed my LSAT from being sick and sheer stupidity. I will be taking it now in June.
7. My loan of $1,500.00 was denied by SUNY Albany. Buttheads.
8. God is good and has and always will take care of me and my future wife.
9. No matter what: God is good.
10. Psalms 145
I have found one of the cutest games in the world: Hamtaro Ham-Ham’s Unite!
This game is for the Game Boy color. Hamtaro came out in the U.S. in 2001. I think it came out in Japan though in 1998. Hamtaro is all about this cute, little hamster who needs to find all his friends and bring them back to the Ham-Ham club house. In this game you (Hamtaro) must learn the hamster dialogue, Ham-Ham chat. So far, I have learned about 20 Ham-chat words. One of the 20 Ham-chat phrases I have learned is: “Go-P”. When you select this phrase Hamtaro turns his back to the screen, wiggles around and shakes only twice. Needless to say this is one of the most bitchingest games of all time. Play it.
*Please don’t stop reading my blogg. I promise tech news will come from Jay’s blogg from here on out.
Over these past few hours I’ve been accounting all the most important things in my life. My God, my family, my friends, and the love of my life. Jen and I spent the holidays at her parent’s house. I had three Christmas’s: 17th, my house, 24th, Jen’s mom’s house and the 25th, Jen’s father’s house. Afterward on the 27th I drove Jen to NYC to get on a plane headed to Brakina Faso, Africa. This was one of the most difficult things I have had to do, find JFK airport in the midst of the borroughs. Well, that was the second hardest thing, I’ve ever done. The first was seeing her get into that line to get on that plane. Jen will be gone for three weeks on a missions trip. After 30 seconds I missed her. It’s now 2:33am, Dec, 29th. All I have done is pray for her, her safety and us. I love that woman with all of my being. I know that God will bring her back well but, my human side still has a hard time with her being so far away. Sometimes in our life we come to a point where we have no control of a situation, all we have to rely on is God. It takes faith. I know, I know, if you know anything about me, or read any of my posts about 40% of them are on faith. Like it or not, I have learned to live on it. I have had some pretty tough situations in my life where I thought I was going to die. Whether it had been of my own doing such as, O.D. on drugs, near misses, car accidents or otherwise. God has been the key focus. I can’t do anything without Him. It seems to me that sometimes I need a reminder of how much I need Jesus. I think that’s why things happen, good or bad. God is testing His children, to see if they have the stones to take the risk, to play the game, to fully rely on Him. I envy Jen, I think she has such a tremendous faith in God. Right now she is risking her life to talk to people about Jesus in a land that hates Christians. People ask her why would she do this? Why would she risk her life on these people? One answer, she has faith in the God that told her to go. It’s the same command Jesus gave to all of those who believe in Him.
“And He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature. He who believes and is baptized will be saved; but he who does not believe will be condemned. And these signs will follow those who believe: In My name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new tongues; they will take up serpents; and if they drink anything deadly, it will by no means hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover.” -Mark 16:15-18
The missions field doesn’t have to be a different country, it could be your neighborhood. It could be to your family, your friends. This doesn’t mean push a Bible down someone’s throat, it’s living the life. Living the way that Jesus did. Loving others as you would love yourself. It sounds easy but, it’s not. I am sad to say that I don’t do it all the time. It breaks my heart sometimes, the cowardess I have about telling someone about God but, I press on. I get pray for strength daily, life is hard but, God is good. If you think that I am spouting off a bunch of bullshit, I dare you to try Jesus. Try Jesus, pray a prayer to Him and ask Him for forgiveness for your sins and live one week with Him. I guarantee you, you will never go back. The world has nothing to offer but, pain and death. God is good, just try. Build your faith, like my future wife. I love you Jen, come home soon.
No, not that time of the month…
It’s time for another exciting addition to the:
DOUCHE BAG Of The Month (D.B.O.T.M.)!!!!
That’s right, scientists that work for The Whimsical World of Mahutaville (W.W.O.M.) have come up with yet another exciting discovery that will shock and amaze you. Yes, it’s true you thought that it couldn’t happen again but someone has taken up the throne to the biggest Douche Bag award. Our deep-rooted analysis of the human psyche and recent douche baggery of this person has rocked the core of modern science and psychology. I give you The W.W.O.M.’s Douche Bag of the Month: Alec Baldwin.
Whether he is making another craptacular blockbuster or giving his opinions on politics, on the Friday’s Real Time with Bill Maher on HBO:
“Most Republicans who are registered Republicans are decent, honest good people who you have a difference of opinion with,” but, he alleged, “the leadership of the Republican Party are a bunch of sociopathic maniacs who have their lips super-glued to the ass of the conservative right.”
Alec Balwin continues to stupefaction and jolt our minds here at The W.W.O.M. Thoughout all of this we have come to the conclusion that someone, no matter how much we analyize sadly, will probably de-throne him within the next month. Until that day, Alex Balwin you are the world’s biggest Douche Bag.
That is all.
I know, I know…I bought the greatest series [SCRUBS] to come to DVD on opening day on Nov. 15th. I had my B-day and am now 22 years old. ..Jen and I went down to her house for the Thanksgiving break. I had a fun but, unsuccessful hunt. Now I am sitting here with a 20 page paper due on Dec. 1st and I have a 6 inch thick pile of loose paper to read for it.
Pray for me and Jen too, we got nothing done in the way of homework last week.